final grades

so considering all that i put on my plate for this past semester, i'm pretty happy. it's not a 4.0, but i'm still passing with a 3.53 gpa. between grades and the violin rental i received for Christmas, i'm pretty close to cloud nine.

to post or not to post

craft pictures.

do i post them now or 

work forbid

wait until the morning 

so i can get better pictures?

and torture you?

the gods must be crazy

well, we know the gods must be crazy. that is why we were in danger of falling icicles, some up to 2 1/2 feet long and 3 in. circumference, the last 4 days. every time joseph sees them on the roof he yells "duck, they're gonna shoot!" and runs into the house. if you're not right behind him, he'll run back out- with his arms covering his head, and grab you. they really could be dangerous. 

and i must be crazy too. last night i dreamt that my friend-that-is-a-boy and i were at his home. cuddling, playing games with his family, just hanging out. i woke up thinking, "he just keeps playing with my hair. why is it so interesting today? oh well, at least he hasn't taken away my cuddles. i do like it when he plays with it, that just doesn't happen often and not around his family. is he thinking of doing something stupid?"

yep, i must be crazy too. no other way that i can find around this... 

really though, i wonder what prompted this dream. have i been unconsciously, okay- somewhat consciously, daydreaming?

and for you sick, love-deprived

sisters who are counting

we've had 2 dates.

(the second date was set up)

and a seat next to me 

-all church meetings, every week. 

i think it's his way of saying that he is 

at least intrigued by me

if not completely blown away.

just a thought

just a measly thought that happened to squeeze it's way into my feelings 

this evening while i was trying to plan out my schedule for the next month 

and figure out what i'm doing; 

when i need to get off work, when to travel, and other crazy stuff like that. 

note- planning even the day of rarely happens anymore. 

i have become so unorganized the last two years it isn't funny. 

actually, compared to my sisters it can be... 

anyhoo i'm babbling now.

i thought about all my family who i haven't seen in years 

and how unpredictable life is. and how easy 

and irresponsible it would be for me to take off and fly to michigan for the holidays. 

or take the train and introduce myself to JJ and remind Cody who I am

and spend a solitary week playing in the snow with my best friend emily. 

and then i broke down. 

because all i really want to do is 

to cuddle up under a big warm blanket 

with some hot cider, 

a good book, 

and my boy. 

okay, the boy i am 

infatuated with. 

just the two of us.

recap

i know i've been mia for a little bit. get over it.

joseph was sick during thanksgiving so we ended up staying home.

laying around in pj's was appreciated by all, and we had some fun times.

highlights included food, duh, the cribbage tournament, and "the war".

homemade cranberry bread, rolls,

green bean casserole, granny's carrot salad...

no, that is not turkey. we were planning on going

elsewhere for the main meal, and my mother GAVE AWAY

our turkey the day before. so no, no turkey.

family

family.

what is family?

how is it determined?

is it the knowledge of blood relation

or the love people show one towards another?

are there levels?

and what constitutes each?

is it the parents and their relations

or something completely different?

is it determined by blood

or time known

or time spent together

or the connection between people?

is it determined by loyalty

or the words given by someone else?

is it simply a word?